Temptation

So it happened today. For the first time I was tempted to jump off the wagon. It was a combination of things. First and foremost, I let myself get too hungry. I waited until after lunch when my stomach was fairly empty to go on a walk. When I got back I was feeling hungry, which progressively got bigger as time went by. On top of that, my roommate began cooking his own dinner, which happened to be shells and cheese (Whole Foods brand), a particular weakness of mine. In that moment, I wanted to eat three fucking boxes of that shit. I am proud to say that it did not happen. I did in fact have two spoonfuls, and then I returned to eating my steamed broccoli and roasted sweet potatoes. A serious victory.

Now some might turn the blame to the roommate, but let's be serious, we are surrounded by unhealthy choices everyday. But that is just the point - they are CHOICES. Bless my roommate's heart, he did ask if he should refrain from discussing meat, etc. I said absolutely not. He should eat and talk about whatever he wants. It's my decision to adopt this lifestyle and if I can't hold it together, it's my issue. Hell, I can't shut out the world just because I need to restore my health.

Tomorrow I'm doing a spinning class at the gym. You may never hear from me again.